live in dead...

hey..kembali lagi aku di sini...
hmm...i dont know how to start the story..but aku sgt888 sedey..that was it.. T_T
did i lost everything??did i??
aku pown ta tau..but aku ase cam skrg aku da ilang segalenyer kowt....i lost the best thing that i ever had in mylife...again...hmmm...aku ta tau..aku buntu sgt888...ape yg aku perlu buat??could u plz tell me??? hmm... aku ilang seseorg yg selalu mnjadi tempat utk aku share smthing bout mylife..no more who will woried bout me when i said im not felling verry well....hmm.. aku syg dye sgt888... aku taley na bygkan how do mylife after this...will be worst.. i hate to be like that again... like back to my old life.. 4taun yg lepas...thats was it... aku tanak cam dulu lagi..but...now im totally in that moment again..hati aku skrg da ta mampu na menampung ape2 agi da...aku da penat yg teramat sgt... if aku diberi pilihan untuk maty atau hidup..aku kan pilih mati...coz mybe dgn care tu dye da ta saket aty ngan aku kowt... aku try untk ta saket an aty dye...tp dye lebeh rela utk di sakiti dri bgtau aku pkare yg sebenar...i try to undrstand but...hmm..i dont know...
how do i live without u anymore?? u r one one of importent thing in my life...phm ta?? sgt2 penting... but now..u leave me to the site..i just need smthing yg boley wat aku percaye yg aku maseh penting dlm idop ko..but..hmm..skrg pe yg tggal pade aku??? its nothing anymore.. just one place yg full of darkness... aku ta tauuuu...
now no more thing that we call it "HAPPINES" in mylife start from today...hmm..
ya Allah berilah aku kekuatan supaye aku mampu berdiri lagi di bumimu ini ya Allah..aku da ta mampu...aku da ta mampu utk hadapi smue nie...='(